Free to be Serena — Radiant and Seen

For much of my life, I lived under a subconscious script: “My existence is a burden.”

This belief shaped how I presented myself to the world. I adopted the role of the “good girl” — careful, compliant, and ever-conscious not to cause disruption, trouble, or inconvenience to others.

This deep-seated narrative influenced how I carried myself, how I connected with others, and even how I led. Despite being placed in prominent position in my local parish, I consistently played small. I feared that standing out might lead to mistakes, draw criticism, or become a burden to those around me. Yet, the tension was always present — I couldn’t fully shrink myself in spaces that called for me to shine. Unconsciously, I was always choosing either to embrace the light within me, or shy away from it entirely.

Becoming aware of this internal script was a turning point. I sat in prayers, conversing with Jesus about this script and realising this is not the Truth. I spoke to my spiritual director and accompaniers about this revelation. This process has disrupted a long-held pattern and allowed something new to emerge.

During a recent pilgrimage with a group of nearly 50 people, I noticed a shift. The old script had been rewritten. In its place came a new truth: “Free to be Serena — Radiant and Seen.”

With this new belief, I experienced a sense of freedom. I found myself reaching out naturally, checking in on others, initiating heartfelt conversations — even staying present with difficult topics, like the passing of an acquaintance’s son. I was no longer hiding; I was fully present.

I became aware not only of what was happening in the lives of those around me, but also of what was blooming within me. It felt like a flower unfolding, releasing a gentle fragrance — welcoming, warm, and quietly radiant.

I felt free, joyful, and deeply connected.